noahs 3 month "schedule"

630 am- eat, go back to sleep

930 am- eat, play

12 noon- eat, sleep

2 pm- eat, play

4pm- eat, sleep

6pm- eat, play

830pm- sleep

930 pm- eat, play

12 midnight- sleep for the night.

this is pretty much noah's schedule. every 2 hours or so he needs to eat, then usually naps afterwards.

cant wait for his 3-month old growth spurt to hit. :/

weight loss

So its been 2 months since I had Noah and ive already lost 32 lbs and have 8 lbs to go till im back down to my pre pregnancy weight. But, to hit my goal I have 25 lbs to go.. so we'll see how that goes. If i start to notice things creeping back up or stalling ill continue the 30-day shred workout (it was hell, haha). When noah starts crawling and walking ill be dropping the lbs so fast; hes so damn active! haha

Life with Noah: 6 weeks old!

So, noah is an awesome little man. he is smiling all the time now, especially when i smile at him and stroke his cheek, that almost always makes him have a big gummy smile. he is so amazing. every morning hes so happy and alert, afternoons are a different story, but all in all hes a relly good baby.

so i wanted to list the things i love to use, and the things that are pretty useless.

LOVE:

1. Carter's Terry Footed Sleeper

These things are awesome. They are so soft, and he looks so adorable in them.

2. Gerber Sleep and Play onesies

Once again, soft and adorable

3. Reusable velour wipes- they save so much money, especially if you own a washer and dryer.

HATE:

Gerber Onesies

They are such a pain to get over his head. Yeah, theyre good for under outfits that have pants and shirt separated, but other than that, weve never used them. So we only used them maybe twice. maybe having a spring/summer baby things would have been different.

2. Sleepsacks

These things suck. They bunch up on his throat and they get way too warm for him.. even in the fall.

alright gotta go, hes waking up.. its his second breakfast time, haha.

Life with Noah: 1 month old!

so the little guy has definitely grown and changed since day 1. looking back at pictures he looks so little and not as "meaty", haha. He is doing so good at nursing, and were both getting the hang out doing it at other peoples houses, and in the car for emergencies (like my extra long shopping trip at tanger outlets yesterday, poor jay). He broke out with baby acne a few days ago, and I have a feeling he has a little acid reflux or something. He always spits up, and he always chokes and gags on my milk. Sleep has been getting better. we were going to try to do a bedtime routine, but theres no way to time everything. if he takes an extra long nap at say, 7pm, then we'll be up extra late (go figure). so its hard to gauge what he'll do from day to day. he wakes up twice a night on average. like last night, we went to bed around 1 after I fed him, then he was up around 5 (amazing!!), then again around 9. I love when hes like this. some nights he has "the witching hour" and is up till around 3-4am crying and fussing. Its pretty hard considering Jay has to work usually the next morning, so Im up with noah trying to soothe him. then who knows if ill get any sleep the next day, it all depends on what the little guy wants to do. its rough sometimes, but its all so totally worth it. he really is my sunshine, and when he smiles it makes every problem or worry I have go away instantly.

Life with Noah: 2 weeks and 6 days old

So noah has been sleeping pretty good lately. we go to bed around 1am, even though hes alseep by 8, and he wakes up around 6. of course theres about 2 feedings during the night and a diaper change, but its been a lot easier than the first week home. hes got a pretty bad diaper rash, like his butt is raw.im trying to air him out a lot and use wipes very sparingly. his gas has reduced a lot, and his poops are little and often, instead of the one huge one we were getting for a few days. now about me. I weight 146, woo hoo! I have 14 lbs to go till im back to what i was when I got pregnant and 31 lbs to go till i hit my goal! not too shabby. alright, well it looks like its noahs second lunch time, he eats sooo often now. he barely latches onto my left breast so he gets probably so little out of it.. but im feeding him whenever he seems hungry (which is every 30 mins or so) so hopefully he's doing good weight/nutrition wise.

16 days PP

So im feeling really good today. I took a long shower, shaved my legs, did a face scrub. I plan on straightening my hair later too. When I looked in the mirror a few minutes ago, I did a double take. I cant believe how fast I'm losing this weight. Or at least how fast I LOOK like I'm losing weight. I know I have some extra fat on my hips and belly, but jeez, its been 16 days and I look totally different. its ridiculous how much my body has changed. Im also going to post pictures of noah. hes also changed a lot since his first day.

anyway. my stitches are feeling a lot better. The ones up top, I think they came out or something cause theyre not there anymore, and it looks like im still torn, but whatever, i dont care what it looks like, and neither does jay. breastfeeding is going great. I give noah one bottle a day on average now. sometimes, usually right before bed, he gets really hungry and I feel like im all out of milk for him, so the formula really fills him up and he sleeps realllly well. he is latching on so fast now, no more frustrated cries from either of us! :). we went to his doctor on tuesday and they said hes already 9 lbs! well, his belly was full of milk and poo, so it may be off by a bit. Im going to weigh myself right now and see how much ive lost.. 148. wow. so ive lost 24 lbs in 16 days :) :) :). IM guessing a lot of it was pregnancy weight, like Noah, and the placenta and amniotic fluid and whatnot. I hope it keeps coming off! I want to be back down to 115 by next summer. I think its do able. definitely for me, I lose weight and gain weight so fast. ok anyway, im going to post those pics and maybe go back to sleep.

Life With Noah: 1 week and 2 days

Having a baby really isnt that hard. They poop, they get hungry, they want to be held and they sleep. Thats it. The only 'hard' part about being a new mom is the lack of sleep. and it only really bothers me in the middle of the night. During the day, I don't really feel the effects of waking up every 2-3 hours for a feeding/diaper change. I love being a mom. I love taking care of Noah and having him sleep on my chest and kissing his beautiful little face. There really isnt a greater feeling than knowing your doing a good job, and that your baby is healthy and happy. He is such a great baby. Even his cries are low and bearable. His #1 need is to be with either me or Jay, on to of our chests, as he sleeps. And I give into that demand 24/7... literally. He sleeps on me and Jay during the day and night, its so comforting for everyone involved I think.

Alright, just wanted to do a little update. and guess where Noah is right now... yup, on my chest, sleeping peacefully with a belly full of mommy milk ;)

4 days PP

So. having a newborn is pretty cool. hes so laid back and sleeps so much during the day haha. at night though, he barely sleeps, but thats to be expected. it hurts so much breastfeeding. im probably going to call la leche league tomorrow to get some help. idk what they will tell me that will solve the issue though. he sucks with his bottom lip in. i have blisters already and i dread breastfeeding so much! thats it. ill update my tummy pic and weight when im 1 week PP. :)

Noah Robert is here!!!

Noah is so amazing. words can't describe how great it feels to be a mom, and to be so lucky to have a healthy, beautiful baby boy. So heres my birth story:

Sept 23rd (Weds)

6am: Bloody show

10am: Continued bloody show, increased in blood and some cramps like menstruation. Called midwives to ask if everything sounds good. Midwives said it sounds great, and we'll probably see our baby within 3 days.

11pm: Laying in bed on my laptop, got some light contractions, wasn't even sure if they counted as contractions but timed them anyway. they were around 7-10 mins apart lasting about 45 seconds.
1130pm: went into living room to tell jay what was going on. I sat on the birth ball to help with pain and contractions started to increase.

Sept 24th (Thursday)
1230am: Contractions still getting worse, having to slightly breathe through them. Sitting on ball, felt like baby dropped really hard into my cervix in the middle of the contraction, and the pain of the contraction increased 10x!! I wanted to cry it hurt so bad out of no where! Then, I felt a little trickle. My water broke!!!
1245am: Called Midwives to ask what to do. wasnt even sure if my water had actually broken or i peed myself cause of the pain of last contraction. she told me to wait it out till contractions were 3-5 min apart for an hour. unless the pain is too unbearable.
100am: hopped into shower, hot water felt amazing on my belly, couldnt find a good position to stand/sit/kneel in. Started to feel nauseas and like i had to poo really bad. Jay left the bathroom and puking and pooping ensued. I told jay to pack his stuff and were going to the hospital. I didnt know, and still dont know why I decided right then was when we should leave for the hospital, but im glad we left when we did.
130am: Load up car and left home.. got gas and and was having some strong contractions in the car. needed jay to stroke my arm gently, which helped a lot, and i breathed through them. the pain at this point wasnt unbearable, just uncomfortable still.
2am: Arrive at hospital, cant make it to the front door without having 3 contractions. Leaning on Jay and doing the "slow dance" helped, but the pain was definitely increasing with each contraction. Male nurse grabs wheelchair for me and helps us get inside. I go to the 8th floor and get asked a bunch of questions, then they brought me into triage. I got hooked up to the monitors. I sat there for about an hour getting asked questions, filling out paper work and stuff. My back hurt sooo bad cause of the way she had me sitting.
3am: At that point, I started asking about pain meds. I knew I didnt want an epidural, but the pain of each contraction was getting bad. Usually theres a break in pain between contractions, but mine were coming every 2-3 mins without a break. I got an IV hooked up to me for fliuds, and got checked for how dilated I was by the midwife. I was 4 cm!!! They told me that my water was a tad green and the baby might have pooped in the womb. they told me they were going to keep me there and we went and found my delivery room!
4am: Sat in delivery room and worked through a bunch of contractions.
430am: I asked to get drugs, and which the midwife prefers, and she suggested Stadol. I havent done any research at all on pain meds, thinking I wouldnt use any, so I trusted her and got some injected into my IV. It took about a minute for it to get to me and I started feeling like I was buzzed/going under anesthesia. I fell asleep then for about an hour.
530am: Woke up from Stadol induced sleep with an enormous amount of pain. I wanted to cry it hurt so bad!! I pressed the Nurse button and someone came in. I asked to be checked for how dilated I was. I got checked and was 9cm!!! I slept through transition!! Midwife told me to turn over to my left side, and the lip of the last cm will be gone soon. As soon as my next contraction started my body wanted to push. It just started pushing. I pressed the Nurse button again and told the midwife my body is pushing, I need to push! By now, the Stadol has worn off and I am back to reality 100%. Pushing starts. Now, pushing didnt really hurt. When a contraction came, it just felt like I needed to poop really bad, and I would bear down as if I was doing exactly that. I could feel him lowering deeper and deeper into my cervix. I did about 6 sets of 3 pushes.
6am: Midwife got all of her catching things ready, and I saw in the little mirror his hair sticking out on the top of his head. It was awesome. I watched Jay's reaction to everything. The midwives asked if I wanted the mirror there the whole time I was pushing and I said no. I was pushing so hard I doubt I would be able to keep my head up and eyes open, haha. I could feel Noah stretching me out. It was hard to sit and wait between contractions, even if the were only a minute or 2 apart. I held a steady pressure on him so he didnt slip back in. The whole 2 steps forward 1 step back thing kinda sucks. The burning sensation of having him crown was very painful.
6:04am: I could feel his nose coming through and that was all the inspiration I needed to push as hard as I could ever push. The midwife told me to listen carefully and go slow. His cord was wrapped around his neck twice, but she got it undone quickly and it wasnt an issue. Then his head popped out, she told me one more strong push and his shoulders will be out! That was such a strange/amazing feeling. I felt a gush of fluid and his shoulders turning as he slipped out and I looked down and saw my amazing baby between my legs. I heard little whimper cries. I held his little hand as the midwife was cutting the cord. They took him over to the bassinet and they got him breathing well and suctioned the fluid out of his nose and mouth. They rubbed him down and brought him over to me. I had my bare chest out in the open for him to lay on, and I stroked his little hand and foot and face. He was adorable. Having to get stitched up sucked. I didnt tear terribly, just a 1st degree tear on my labia and minor fissure tears along the sides.

Noah was born at 6:04 am September 24th weighing in a 8 lbs 6 oz.
My labor and delivery was in total 7 hours! It was such an amazing experience, even though you hear that all the time, it is so true. there is nothing like having a little person that depends 100% on you and your partner, and is half you and and half of them. the love is indescribable.

bloody show!!

so i woke up this morning, and wiped, and i had my bloody show!! it wasnt very bloody, just pink tinged. ohhh im so excited. im going to try to walk today, and bounce on my ball a lot. hopefully this will all happen very soon!!

waiting...

sighhh. i just want him to come out already!!! jays dad is going away for a few days the day after tomorrow, so kiddo better arrive when grandpa is still in the area. hes still moving around a bunch, and seems pretty comfortable in my belly. my carpal tunnel is still sucky, last night was particularly bad, but if thats all i have to complain about this WHOLE pregnancy, i consider myself lucky. i havent really had any real contractions yet, i dont think i have at least. ive been having some cramping and a lot of lightning crotch, but other than that nothings been going on really. oh. the other day when i went to wipe after i peed there was this really strong, goopy string of stuff coming from my vag. im assuming thats my mucus plug, even though the decription of what it SHOULD be like is nothing like what actually came out of me. I just hope he comes soon. i ont want an october baby. and i REALLY dont want to be induced either. if i go another 7 days i have an ultrasound and we're going to talk induction. :(. i want them to strip my membranes when i go this thursday, if i make it till then. but knowing the midwives, they probably wont do anything until im 41 weeks or 42 weeks. hell, they havent even given me an internal yet and im past my due date. thats one thing that annoys me. if i want to be checked, i think i have the right to know. blahhhh noah come outtttt. weve tried sex, walking, the essential oils that are supposed to make contractions strong, nipple stimulation, bouncing on the birth ball, pineapple and spicy food. ugh. idk what to do anymore. i am so pathetically bored.

im going to take a nap.

hopefully the next time i post, ill be posting about my far apart my contractions are, and hopefully thatll be it!!!

40 weeks :)

How far along? 40 weeks! yayy due date!

Total weight gain/loss: 171 according to my drs scale on thursday. so 39 lbs gained total. not bad.
Maternity clothes? nothing new

Stretch marks? my left hip is the worst. my belly has a bunch of little ones going all the way up..

Sleep: last night was terrible. my back needed to be cracked every 3.5 seconds, my hands were completely stiff, my ankles hurt, ugh, i just felt so achy.

Best moment this week: hitting my due date! woo hooooo
Movement: a lot as i type right now. but hes still a very active little baby
Food cravings: nothing
Gender: boy
Labor Signs: none. :( had a dream last night i got bloody show and mucus plug at the same time. i was so excited.

Belly Button in or out? same
What I miss: not having stretchies :( i cant wait to drop this weight. -yup same

What I am looking forward to: my labor. meeting noah.

Milestones: MY DUE DATE! WOOOOOT. doesnt mean he'll be coming out any time soon though. well. within the next 2 weeks deff.

Note to self:

When Gabi gets pregnant, play cruel tricks on her so that she cant use the bathroom and needs to pee very badly. Such an inconsiderate bitch. get out of your very long, drawn out -costing ME money for electricity and hot water- shower and unlock the damn door so i could at least pee while your taking your shower. instead i get a 'uhhhhh ill be out in a minute....' instead. wtf? go burn.

anxious.

thats the one word I can deff use to describe how I feel. Im excited, bored, nervous, but most of all anxious. I just want something to do. and I cant wait to see how my labor plays out. haha. I know most people are scared and don't want to even think about their up coming labor, but I just want to see what happens. Will my water break first? will be in public if it happens? will i start to feel contractions in the middle of the night? will jay have to rush home? will my contractions come out of no where and be very strong? will i have a bloody show or at least see my mucus plug before any of this starts? will i have to be induced?? will i go past 42 weeks? will I have my other sonogram? will I HAVE TO use drugs to induce my labor? sighhh so many questions, so excited to find out the answers. haha. im going crazy, I know. I just want this to happen already!!!!!

39.5 week appt

so yesterday I went to another appt. I was so excited, i was hoping I was going to get an internal, and mayyyybe get my membranes swept. nope. At my other 39 week appt, the nurse brought out hte gown and said they might have an internal done, i got so excited. so i figured this time, since its been like 5 days since last time, they would AT LEAST do an internal. :( i was so sad. they said they usually do them after 40 weeks. tear. so i didnt gain any weight and my blood pressure was a tad high i think. it may be because I drove myself, after not driving for like 2 weeks, to the appointment. so, nothing new. oh, Marie said he feels about 7.5 lbs and hes in the "perfect position". yayyy! cant wait to meet him!

still pregnant..

so tomorrow i have another appt. i cant believe i went this long. i booked this appt 2 weeks ago thinking, i deff wont make it to that appt.. but yup.. i did. greeeeat. I HOPE i get an internal tomorrow. if i dont, ill pretty much demand it. and while shes down there, maybe she can sweep my membranes? thatd be awesommmmme. ugh. 39 wks and 4 days. tear.

39 weeks

How far along? 39 weeks. wooooot

Total weight gain/loss: 171 :D 39 lbs gained total. pooo. but whatever
Maternity clothes? nothing new

Stretch marks? my hip ones are getting soooo bad.

Sleep: my pubic bones are deff not as bad as they were. they pop in the middle of the night sometimes. and my carpal tunnel is kinda worse, but im getting used to it so its okay.

Best moment this week: hearing i only gained 1 lb this week even though i pigged out so bad on icecream and devil dogs haha.
Movement: yup... same amount
Food cravings: chocolate. just a lot of food.
Gender: boy
Labor Signs: none. got a little crampy last night.. prob just gas though.

Belly Button in or out? same
What I miss: not having stretchies :( i cant wait to drop this weight.

What I am looking forward to: my due date! its in a week! wowowwwwww.

Milestones: nothing new this week. but we talked about induction and a late term sonogram, which i didnt know they did, but if i go 8 days past my due date, i have a sono :) one positive i guess haha

39 week appt

So. I met a new midwife today, he name was Carine i think. she was okay. a little older, reminded me of a doctor, more than a midwife. she told me Noah is very low, and head down still. the nurse got me excited when she pulled out the apron and lap cover thingy, but Carine put it away once she came into the room :( no internals for me. she told me that most first time moms can expect to go 10 days past her due date. sigh. thats way too long from here. thats a whole 18 days from today :'( tearrrr. but anyway, i only gained 1 lb! i was so excited when i saw that! i moved the scale all the way to 176 to start off at, and it was way too much and i was like yesss and kept sliding it back.. 171. WOOT! yes, thats still high, and 39 lbs gained thus far in my pregnancy, but i really just had a huge jump in the 2nd trimester. idk what happened those few weeks, but i gained most of my weight then. ok, ill do a full update tomorrow morning. :)

mucus plug?

So I was pooping, and i think my mucus plug flew out. im not sure, cause i was in the middle of doing a poo.. haha.. soo yea. just thought i'd mention this. oh and 10 days left!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHH. so amazing. i remember my 35/35 and hitting 100 days to go... wow only 10 days left!! thats insaneeeeee.

38 weeks

How far along? 38 weeks. im ready. haha

Total weight gain/loss: havent checked. dk where the scale is, and id rather not know. ive been pigging out the past 2 days. my tummy just feels funny alot.
Maternity clothes? nothing new

Stretch marks? same. my lower belly might be getting worse.. but the damage is done already anyway

Sleep: same issues with my pubic bone and carpal tunnel in my hands.. ugh so bad! i dont even look forward to sleeping anymore. i know, shocker.

Best moment this week: getting my oil and cloth diapers in and being 100% ready for my little boy to come.
Movement: yup. nothing crazy during the full moon though.. which surprised me.
Food cravings: chocolate. a lot of it. oh and for like a day i wanted sweet potato fries
Gender: boy
Labor Signs: none. my vag hurts kinda. i used some of my oil on my belly and he started moving a lot haha. but nothing notable.

Belly Button in or out? same
What I miss: sleeping comfortably.

What I am looking forward to: having him. hahah. not being uncomfortable when i sit/lay down/walk. i'm actually really excited to go into labor. haha

Milestones: nothing new this week. but he's deff full term and im deff ready for him to come out :)

37.5 week appt.

so I had my appt yesterday. I had Heather the midwife.. my favorite :). I am negative for GBS (group B strep) so I wont need meds while giving birth.. thank god. I weigh the same as last week, and Noah is still head down and "about 7lbs or so". yayy. I cant believe i have a 7lb baby boy in my belly! haha. Overall it was a great appt. survey and shizz sunday.

oh and i got this oil. idk if i talked about it before on here, but i will again anyway

I looked up some website that had "labor oils".. if u combine a bnch of certain essntial oils, youll have a pain free labor..hm.. haha. well I was going to go out and buy all the diff types of oils and do a few drops of one, a few more of another.. but it would get so pricy! So I started searchng for oils already put together for labor.. and I found this oile. http://www.naturaleco.com/natural-remedies/heavenly-labor-massage-oil-relax-tension-birth.shtml

I know its a little pricy, but I fond it on another website with 2 day shipping for only $38. And even if the oil doesnt do anything, Im believing in it, and hopefully itll at least have a placebo affect on me haha.

Its coming in the mail today.. and im not supposed to use it until im in labor.. but I think on the 9th im going to rub some on, just to see if itll induce me haha.

Carpal Tunnel and Pubic Bones...

So as youve read, I have terrible pubic bone pain at night. like, where i wake up and try to roll over and almost start to cry. well, now you can add carpal tunnel to my woes. I woke up the other day and my hands were a tad more swollen than usual, and my right ring finger clicked open and closed. so weird. so i had my appt yesterday, which ill write another post about, and she told me to get a heated pack thing on my crotch, and drink more water for my hands/finger pain. so i have been, but its only been a day. so during the night last night, I slept mostly on my back (sleeping on my side crushes my pubic bones together..funn) with a little heated pad thingy between my legs.. it actually helped a lot. Now, my finger problem got a lot worse. I woke up and had to snap open all my fingers, and now they hurt to make a fist. wtf. Im so over this. I cant close or open my hand without my other hand helping. ugh. I only have 2 weeks left. i know. but ugh. k bye.

37 weeks! yayyy full term!!

How far along? 37 weeks. ahhhhhhh my little boy is a full grown baby. i cant believe itttt

Total weight gain/loss: well i already has breakfast.. and ive been eating shit lately cause were in the middle of moving.. (mcdonalds for dinner and brownie/cookie for lunch :/ ) but the scale says 170. not bad i guess. 38 lbs gained so far. hm whatever.
Maternity clothes? nothing new. didnt return those pants. so glad i didnt, i wore them this weekend.

Stretch marks? the same ones, just stretching more and more and the one of my left hip is the worst!!

Sleep: cant roll over anymore. my pubic bone feels like its going to break in half. fun fun. when i wake up in the am its the worst, well at least for the past 2 days.

Best moment this week: im full term! holy holy crap. wow. i cant believe he made it and were going to have a baby, and he wont need to stay in the nicu. wow. im just so happy hes 37 weeks!
Movement: yup, a lot. 2 days in a row this week he was moving non stop. he calmed down yesterday though. i cant wait to see how he reacts to the full moon this time haha
Food cravings: hmmm nothing really. i can always go for some starbucks now, but its not like i need it like idid last week haha
Gender: still a little boy.. hopefully. haha
Labor Signs: nothing. no bloody show, or mucous plug (expect weird discharge as mentioned in other posts), nothing. the midwives dont check for dilation, so i have no idea about that. ill ask to be checked on thursday haha.

Belly Button in or out? same
What I miss: being able to sleep comfortably, and walk, without being in pain.

What I am looking forward to: setting up the room were going to share, meeting him, having a tub to labor in (and use those essential oils i ordered for $30.. it better work! haha)

Milestones: FULL TERM!!!

pelvic pain

ok so today im 36wks and 6 days and its really rainy and grey out. my pubic bone is killllllling me. it feels like its breaking in half. thank god i dont have a lot to do today. colleen has her 40th surprise bday party at the arboretum, i have to hand out some thank you cards and pick up my snowboard from dianas house. jay decided he wants to buff/sand/polish the wood floors at the new house today and tomorrow, so moving is put on hold. hopefully he can take off a day this week and move the furniture, seeing that i dont think noahs going to last much longer. i feel like hes going to rip through my urethra. its painful. i really hope i can deal with the pains of labor.

I bought this bottle of essential oils last night.. it should be here tuesday-ish. its lavender, clary sage and jasmine. combining them makes a great labor potion to help with pain and make labor shorter. I am believing in this oil 100% because i need positive thoughts about my labor and maybe itll have a placebo effect, if it really doesnt work. we have a tub at the new house so ill put a few drops in the tub while im in early/active labor, and all over my belly and back the rest of the time. this is if everything goes as planned. who knows, maybe we wont e in that house yet when i go into labor. sigh... this is so stressful. it is stressful enough having a baby, then add in moving when I'm 37 wks, and also add in that jays re-doing the floors, and i freak out. i want to be as calm as possible going into labor. plus stress itself can out me into labor.. sooo I dont want that to happen yet. not for another week. the 9th is looking perfect still haha.

alright. im going to hang out on the bed and try to get my mind off this stupid pain. the only thing that helps is spreading my legs wide, while leading back so hes not putting all of his weight on the bone. let hope this isnt the start of it all.

oh and p.s- im still having that gooey mucous discharge. its weird, i thought i would start to lose my mucous plug in chunks and then have a bloody show when labor was close.. but now i just have snot like stuff.. hmm

peace out

36.5 week appt

so today i had my appt. I had someone, i think her name was Julie, she was a resident or student or something. she was sooo nice. she told me Noah seems about 6lbs, which means he'll be about 7.5lbs when hes born, if hes born on time. hes also head down :). I didnt gain any weight this week! still at 168, yay!! and ummmm yea. got my GBS test done. it wasnt bad at all. it was a lot easier than a pap. i think im starting to lose my mucous plug, I just wiped and it was like a yellowy thin stretchie type discharge. its deff different, so maybe the mucous plug is to follow.

I visited my grandma and grandpa today and 5 of my gmas friends were over and they said it looks like im ready to go very soon. one of them has 27 grand kids, so i think im going to believe them haha. i dont think im going to make it another 2 weeks. hes going crazy!!! i think hes going to come out around the 4th, the full moon. haha. we'll see!! were moving into the house this weekend, so anytime after all of our stuff is there is fine with me. my mom could always unpack it for us while were still in the hospital haha. alright thats it

:)

crampy :(

so im 36.5 weeks today, and im kinda crampy, nothing serious. i really hope this little boy waits it out at lesat a few more days. i kno all the babies on jays side came early, and so did i.. so im hoping he just waits till like.. monday. thatd be nice. pretty much any day after sat/sunday would be good. were moving into our new apt this weekend.. so everything is in boxes right now.

hes been acting crazy lately. kinda like how he did with the last full moon. haha im curious as to how hes going to be this full moon, now that hes bigger and is closer to his due date. i cant see him making it to the due date. idk what it is. I can make it, but idk about him. hes so active, and really seems like he just wants out haha.

ok going to go pray he waits another week.. bye

the house

sooo i saw the house with my mom and sister today. i love it. it needs some work, but it is deff great for the price. theyre painting the whole inside of the house today, putting up a railing for the stairs (and i saw it, and it uggggly, but w/e), theyre also putting up a runner thingy of carpet up the stairs in a light beige (sweet!). i want to buy it from john once his mom dies and he wants to sell it. its perfect. its right by a brand new, nice neighborhood. its not on a buy street whatsoever. it is JUST LIKE the house we saw in mastic that i liked, besides it needing a little work (ill get to what i'd do it to if we bought it in a bit) and its bigger, annnnd the living room is situated in a way that would work, unlike the other house where the fireplace would be in the way and stuff. i loooove it. ok what i would do to it if we were buying it (not including what they are doing to it already for us). I would sand and polish the floors, take down the wood moulding around the windows and doors, get a new vanity for the bathroom.. it deff has the space for a bigger one, re-do the upstairs. idk what we would use the rooms for, maybe a guest/2nd child's bedroom to the left, then a play room to the right.. most likely. but we'd have to change where the door is.. prob make a little closet, or 2nd bathroom straight ahead, then doors on either side. in the kitchen i would replace the cabinets with nice white ones or a light wood, maybe a dark wood, idk haha, and get a brand new fridge, stainless steel :D. and a new counter top and sink. i didnt really look at the sink or counter top, but im assuming its not as great as i would want it to be in our house. and i would replace the front and back doors, they just replaced the knobs, but the doors are kinda icky. the front of the house is perfect. they really went nuts with the curb appeal. i would just take down the little wall thingy holding up the awning and get a nice wood porch, like the one jay built at his aunts. and in the back yard i would expand the back stoop/porch to the left all the way and make a little deck, big enough to fit a table and chairs and a bbq. i would also want to put up a fence around the back yard and along the sides. and thats it. wow. John the landlord is replacing the cesspool, i think hes putting 2 in? idk what that means, but thats what mom said. there is a washer and dryer and a dishwasher. hes really cheap, and a nice guy, and if his mom goes anytime soon, within like 5 years ,the market will still be sucky, and i KNOW he would give us an awesome price. jay would want to finish the basement.. and its totally doable. i love it. so much. and now moms saying im "taking control" of all of this and she feels like "she found it first, and SHES renting it.." uhhh so are we..... were splitting it. w/e. im just sooo excited to be moving into a house, with a yard! haha.

36 weeks survey!! woot woot

How far along? 36 weeks. holy cow.

Total weight gain/loss: hopping on scale right now... 100% empty stomach.. 167!! i think i lost a pound!! yesss.
Maternity clothes? nothing new. going to return the brown pants and pink flowy top so i can get a few more cami's instead. these things are awesome. maybe another nursing bra too..

Stretch marks? umm i have a complete halo around my belly button.. but whatever. the worst one is on my left hip, its very wide and deep looking.

Sleep: been going good. getting up about 1-2 times a night. last night i felt like crap out of no where. like, i woke up drenched in sweat, and i felt light headed and weird. i think those are signs of high blood pressure, but i think i was just dehydrated. i took a quick shower, and drank some water and felt better. phewww.

Best moment this week: realizing we only have 1 weekend left till im full term. wow. then little noah can come any time he wants! haha
Movement: hes been kicking up under my left ribs a lot.. doesnt hurt though. i think these pregnant women are so dramatic about things. i can feel him move against my cervix, and right by my pubic bone. and of course everywhere else on my belly haha.
Food cravings: still starbucks iced mochas.
Gender: little boy.. cna u imagine hes actually a girl?? ugh.. that would suck.
Labor Signs: umm had a contraction i think on thursday. just one though. but other than that, no mucous plug or bloody show. and im not getting any internals till in 40 weeks.. so we'll never know!!

Belly Button in or out? same
What I miss: sigh. looking at old pictures of myself (and i mean when i first met jay, back in 06 old) i looked soo good.. i want to get back to that again.

What I am looking forward to: hitting 37 weeks, being done with moving and setting up his new room.

Milestones: none this week. just one week closer to meeting our little boy!

moving rant and stuff

so my mom is renting a 4br house in calverton and jay and I are moving in with her. I know its going to be hard living with my mom again after not living wit her for 2.5 years, but the help with noah, and dinners, and savings on rent will outweigh the cons. tomorrow were going to the house and checking it out. the people moving out (who is apparently just as pregnant as i am, what a coincidence!) should be 90% done moving... we'll see about that. so if all goes as planned the landlord (john) is going to paint the entire inside of the house, put up a new railing for the stairs, put up molding for the doors(?) and get the cesspool replaced. ugh. so much!! i really hope he just paints the house asap (like this week coming uo.. before we move in) and everything else kinda gets pushed to the side. unless of course we actually NEED a new cesspool. my mom and sister are asking for the strangest thigns to get done before we move in. i dont get why the house needs to be repainted, or why WE need a railing, when a 8 month pregnant lady did just fine without one this whole time... w/e. i just hope there isnt a lot of construction going on when noah gets here. painting the house while hes here would piss me off so much. what do they expect me to do with a newborn with all those fumes? ugh. its not like there buying the house from him.. which reminds me. he said that once his mom passes hes going to sell the house. and btw, she has like one foot in the grave already! sooo whats going to happen if she dies like... next month? were out of there? hellll no. Jay jokingly said we'll buy it from him. right. well.. maybe. Ive gotta see it first then maybe I'd be on board with that. oh, and gabi is having a shit fit cause mom promised her she could have the whole upstairs for herself, and mom would take one of the rooms downstairs... did i forget to mention gabi's going away to school in January? why would SHE get the biggest rooms of the house and make mom squeezw into a small one?? i dont get it. well now were mving in too, so gabi gets the smallest room upstairs, mom gets the other one upstairs, and we get the 2 downstairs down a hallway. which is perfect so our cat doesnt have to walk throughout hte house (aka deal with the annoying dogs) to get to her food/litter box which will be in the basement.

didnt mean to rant or type nearly that much about all of this stuff.. but that was on my mind.

Im going to be 36 weeks tomorrow. 36 FREAKIN WEEKS! i cant believe it. i have 4 weeks to go.. if i make it to my due date. wow. I just hope he comes after we move, after the paint and after 37 weeks so he's full term. Im so ready for him besides the just mentioned things.

were moving next weekend, hopefully, as long as everything goes on schedule and as planned. i already packed up my clothes, all the odds and ends around the house expect for the dishes, the kitchen stuff (microwave, toaster, etc). i packed up the bathroom stuff, the babies stuff (which is still accessible just in case he decides to come early) and now we just have the furniture to move and we're all set! i cant wait to have a room with a/c. and a final place set for noah to meet the world. sighhh.

so.. about being 35 ks and 5 days pregnant. everyone stares at me. everyone. i feel like they think im an alien, or as if i dont notice them staring at my belly. yes im pregnant, no i still have a month to go, no thats not a long time, yes i feel fine, yes, the summer heat sucks ass and no, i dont wish i was pregnant in the winter. that pretty much sums it all up hahah. the siscomforts ive been feeling: cant move fast. to get to one side of the bed to another takes like 30 secs haha, and its awkward trying to move. my belly is big, my legs dont bend up far anymore, and I weigh just so damn much! i get out of bed on average 2x a night to pee. not too bad. a few nights ago my back was killllling me. i think it was cause i was out and about with my mom and sister for like a week straight to escape the heat in my grandmas pool and run errands. my bacj got better once i stayed home in front of the fan and played Farmville and Bejeweled non stop haha. hmm what else. oh, ive been having random contraction feeling things. deff not Braxton Hicks anymore. I know what those are like. (they are when my belly gets hard, and my belly button area goes in deep, and the 2 sides rise up in hard masses.. fun, i know.) these are different. i think i had 2 in the past week or so. one was after i hurried my ass to the bathroom after one of jays softball games (afraid they were going to lock it up at belmont park cause it was late). it was like a contraction. thats the best way i can describe it. it was a tightness all around my belly, that hurt, a lot. i had to breathe through it and I just felt like either farting my brains out, or puking. then it went away in about a minute, and all was good. this was i think the day after my back was hurting from all the stuff with mom and gabi.. so that might have contributed to it. thats about it with the discomforts. my skin is clear, my hair is getting long (going to cut it this week.. should have actually cut it when i had the gift card to christopher jon salon, but chickened out and just got a trim..boo), i have cellulite all over my body. no really. if i squeeze the skin on my arms i have it, on my calves, my thighs (well duh) my butt, everywhere. and jay told me he saw that i got some more back fat. yayyy thanks. im really hoping what everyone is saying is true. "oh honey, your young and your going to breastfeed! the pounds will just melt right off of you!!' i hope. how about all my pregnancy weight, plus 15 lbs? that be nice. a nice 115 again. i wish.

alright i guess im done now haha.. i figure i dont have many more chances/time to write more blogs about being pregnant seeing that im almost done (!!!!!).. so a nice long update was needed.

survey in the AM with pictures, i promise.

35 WEEK SURVEY!

How far along? 35 weeks! ive hit the 35/35 mark! woo hooo i cant believe it!

Total weight gain/loss: lets see.. i just had half a wrap so hopefully it doesnt show... 168 :( booo. only a little while to go tho, so hopefully it doesnt go up much more...
Maternity clothes? lots of stuff. got 2 camis, a cute pink flowy shirt, an orange shirt that matches my favorite blue one, a plain blue tee, and 2 white shirts that are perrrfect for this hot weather

Stretch marks? i got vaseline hydrating lotion, and it seems to help alot

Sleep: been getting up 2x a night to pee.. im just lucky im not normal and havent been doing this all 9 months haha

Best moment this week: not sure. hes been kind calm lately, and nothings really been happening haha
Movement: slowed down since the full moon last week, but hes still an active little boy.
Food cravings: starbucks caffe mocha, iced coffee, anything thats chocolate or coffee.. or both! haha
Gender: little boy
Labor Signs: lots of braxton hicks. have to drink more water.

Belly Button in or out? sam, out on top, flat on bottom
What I miss: just weighing less, and not feeling like a fatty haha

What I am looking forward to: playing with him, seeing what he looks like, holding his little hand :) and weight loss haha

Milestones: 35/35! wowww. 14 days till full term, and 35 days till due date woo hooooo.

34.5 weeks appt

so i had my most recent appt yesterday with heather the midwife. she was so cool, and sweet. i kinda hope i have her "catch" noah. i just felt like we clicked really well. so, my appt was for 140, and jay took off yesterday cause i was feeling a little crappy the day before, bad headache and just feeling soo out of it. anyway, he wanted to go to IHOP before hand, so we did, and of course i got Nutella crepes and hash browns (yummmm!). i felt kinda bad knowing the scale was going to show that i just ate a huge meal, and was probably going to get another "talk" from the midwife. well. i hopped on the scale a little while after the crepes, and it said 168. 168! the scale there is always higher by like 2-3 lbs compared to my scale.. but last time i was there they said i was at 34 lbs.. so that means i only gained 2 lbs in the past 2 weeks. plus, i just ate a big meal.. i felt so good about myself. ANNND i didnt get a talk this week :) what a relief.

I took maternity pictures with Carlye weds, it was funny. im so camera shy, and dont know what to do in front on the camera, but we got some cute shots from it. were doing more saturday morning outside, which will be nice cause studio (aka my apartment) was so boring and we had nothing to work with.

thats about it. i cant believe ill be 35 weeks sunday!! my 35-35! hollllly crap. 37 days till my due date. wowwww. and even leff till im full term. jesus.

stretch marks.

so. im starting to get this huge halo of stretchies around my bellybutton. ive been using bio oil and earth mama angel baby body butter, and neither of them have really helped. well yesterday i got a sample of vaseline aloe fresh hydrating lotion, and ive been using it a lot and my stretchmarks are definitely improving. when i went to my appt yesterday she told me "you need to use more lotion, its like white girls are afraid of lotion! -heather" haha. so i started using more and this stuff really is helping. i may just buy a huge thingy of it when i run out.

34 week survey

How far along? 34 weeks. hoollllly cow. its really hitting us how close we are now.

Total weight gain/loss: lemme see.. 166. whimper. ugh. well we DID just get back from vaca. we ate alot of pizza and beef jerkey...
Maternity clothes? nothing new

Stretch marks? ones on belly stretching a bit.. but its okay.. they fade sometimes, then get bright.

Sleep: pubic bone is killing me lately.. not last night tho.. but every other night its been terrible.

Best moment this week: not sure. this whole week has been full of baby stuff, between the hospital tours, and getting ready for him.
Movement: more than ever. he is insane!! we'll see if the next full moon makes him come early. this one deff made him act strange.
Food cravings: chocolate. icecream, hot cocoa, anything.
Gender: little boy
Labor Signs: none. a lot of braxton hicks, and a loooot of cramy thick discharge. like very thick. ew, i know.

Belly Button in or out? out on top, flat on bottom
What I miss: not having cellulite and stretch marks everywhere, not weighing 160 lbs, being able to get up/get out of bed/put on my pants on my own haha (same)

What I am looking forward to: holding him.. losing this weight. (same)

Milestones: none this week. but soon 35/35!

34 weeks!!

wow! i cant believe it. we have 3 weeks till im full term and 6 weeks till my due date! wowwww. sooo i just wanted to update everything thats been going on lately.

We took a breastfeeding class and a hospital tour in the hospital this week. i liked seeing where we'll be and what the rooms look like. while we were walking around the tour i started getting realllly crampy. but not like contractions. it hurt like i was running the mile in school and you get that cramp on the side of your stomach.. ugh. but i think it was also due to stress. i was with my mom and sister and they were just bugging the crap out of me. well, my mom mostly. thats when i decided theres no way they can be in the delivery room with me and jay, no matter how much gabi whines. my mom was perfectly okay with it. thank god. i didnt want to hurt her feelings, so im glad she said its fine.

Noah has been CRAZY lately. there was a full moon 2 days ago, and the day before it, and the day of he never stopped moving. and when i mean moving, he was jutting out and kicking everywhere.. quite annoying when it never stops haha. while I type this, he is rolling around while pushing soo hard against my cervix. idk how he doesnt dilate me with his head, and make my water break. ive been having a lot of braxton hicks. i thought it was just him laying in a weird position, but i asked my midwife (maria) and she said, yep those are braxton hicks! well, ive been noticing them all the time now haha. i just know hes going to come early, hes already trying to break out of my belly haha. hopefully, he comes after 37 weeks.

Were installing the car seat today. im going to call the car seat inspecter guy at the fire department and see what side of the car to put it on, and when he can inspect it. jay thnks we dont need to, buti read somewhere that 8/10 car seats are installed incorrectly. sheesh. but i dont want him to think hes going to do it wrong, so ill just say i want to make sure with someone whos certified in exactly this.

Sleep has been okay. when i roll over my pelvic/pubic bones hurt sooo much!!! im using a pillow between by legs, and sometimes when i wake up my legs crack open. ugh. so painful.

We were supposed to get our maternity pictures done yesterday, but jay had an unexpected trip to Odessa, which was AMAZING, so we had to put it off till this thursday when jays at work :(.

Oh, and that reminds me. i think Noah has dropped a bit. its funny though.. all the pregnant women on the boards talk about how they couldnt breathe or eat anything more than a few bites before they dropped and how relieved they were once they did drop. but i dont/didnt feel any of that. i was eating a lot still, and can breathe fine. then they also complain about it feeling as though your holding a melon between your legs when they REALLY drop. i hope i dont get that symptom.

Ive had the easiest pregnancy ever. really. i loved every minute of it and these past few months have been amazing. growing our son in my belly. hes just so amazing, and i cant wait to see him in person. i cant wait to kiss his little face and hands and hold him so close to me. soon! cant believe it!!!

My mom is moving into a 4 br house in a few weeks and jay and i are pretty sure we want to move into 2 of the rooms. the rent would only be 500 plus utilities. which is half of what were paying now. even if we sta for just a few months it would be great for our wallets, and to help out with a newborn. i really hope he doesnt come in the middle of us moving though. ohhh that would be annoying. but hopefully iacn start packing soon, and once move in day comes, we can load up and ship out asap.. without having half our stuff here and half our stuff there. we have to check out the place soon, but theres very little that would make us stay here. theres fleas everywhere, the people downstairs are terrible and we have no yard whatsoever.

alright im done blabbing, survey is coming up in a minute.

33 week survey

How far along? 33 weeks! wow less than 30 days till im full term, and less than 50 days till my due date!

Total weight gain/loss: 163. hasnt gone up at al this week :) although, at the doctors, they got me at 166.. hmm
Maternity clothes? nothing new

Stretch marks? got more bio-oil, stretchies seem to have calmed down a bit

Sleep: this morning i was able to crack my whole back , like i used to before i got pregnant. ahhh sooo nice. sleeps been fine though.

Best moment this week: having mom and gabi video tape my belly moving, and having them feel him at his craziest moments haha
Movement: a lot
Food cravings: cut back on the pancakes.. got chocolate icecream though, but jay is monitoring how much i have haha. but, no cravings really.
Gender: little boy
Labor Signs: so, when my stomach gets really hard, and it feels as though noah is taking up my whole belly, that is a braxton hicks. i thought i wasnt having these, but apparently, I'm having these A LOT. like a few times in an hour sometimes. yesterday at the beach, i thought i had a contraction. it felt like a menstrual cramp, and it was uncomfortable for about a min or a little less. a lot of thick stuff coming from my vag. didnt even know it was there till i went ot the bathroom at the beach yesterday and saw all of it.. it was a lot. and when i went to the bathroom 2 days ago, i saw little chunky white things in the toilet.. but not as big as they describe a mucous plug. when i watch those videos of the lady' belly at 39 weeks the day before she went into labor, her belly moves just as much as mine, and i think (not just for that reason.. but also for the other reasons stated above) that I will deff have him early. like, maybe 37 weeks. well, maybe its just cause I HOPE he comes around 37-38 weeks haha.

Belly Button in or out? out on top, flat on bottom
What I miss: not having cellulite and stretch marks everywhere, not weighing 160 lbs, being able to get up/get out of bed/put on my pants on my own haha

What I am looking forward to: holding him.. losing this weight.

Milestones: hes the size of a honeydew melon! wow.

32 wk 5 d appt..

so I had the midwife Marie again, and she told me i have gained 34 lbs os far and i need to start doing someting about it. idk what to do. im not eating bad.. besides the occasional icecream, and i dont even have a lot. but, she told me to take walks, and go for swims... neither of which i want to do. we dont have a pool, and its so hot out lately, i cant even think about walking.

my upper arms are so chubby now, and my thighs, and my face. :( when noah comes, i think im going to sign up at lucille roberts or something. i know ill be tired, and sleep deprived, but i need to get back to the way i was pre-pre-pregnancy. like 115. that would be nice. i just feel so lumpy. yea, lumpy is a good word.

well, when noahs here, ill be too busy to eat a lot, and ill be getting a workout lifting him up over and over.. haha- this is me tryign to rationalize how ill lose weight after hes born. If i breastfeed ALL THE TIME maybe ill burn more calories. fat baby = skinny mommy. haha.

ok, enough of this pity party. i am beautiful and pregnant, and this is how Im supposed to get. soft and lumpy for baby.

hmph. that didnt make me feel better.

bye for now.

Baby shower pictures

32 week survey

How far along? 32 weeks. I think sincei feel like time is flying right now, in the last few weeks it will crawllll byyyy

Total weight gain/loss: 163....
Maternity clothes? nothing new

Stretch marks? ugh, a halo around my belly button. went out and bought more bio-oil. :(

Sleep: first charlie horse in a long time in my calf this morning. and my pelvic pain is really bad at night.. but thats the ONLY thing i have to complain about really.

Best moment this week: my baby shower! :)
Movement: a lotttt. hes so funny sometimes. jay said he was playing tag with him. saying "your it!" and noah would kick him back haha.
Food cravings: ive been making chocolate chip banana pancakes this past week. never really liked pancakes before.. love em now!
Gender: little boy
Labor Signs: None

Belly Button in or out? just flat really
What I miss: not having cellulite and stretch marks everywhere, not weighing 160 lbs... (same)

What I am looking forward to: seeing his little face, and holding his hand for the first time. losing this weight and cellulite.

Milestones: dont think so. just cant believe im 8 weeks from my due date already! jays dad said he has a feeling noah will come 11 days early.. which would be 09/09/09.. haha thatd b awesome.