pelvic pain

ok so today im 36wks and 6 days and its really rainy and grey out. my pubic bone is killllllling me. it feels like its breaking in half. thank god i dont have a lot to do today. colleen has her 40th surprise bday party at the arboretum, i have to hand out some thank you cards and pick up my snowboard from dianas house. jay decided he wants to buff/sand/polish the wood floors at the new house today and tomorrow, so moving is put on hold. hopefully he can take off a day this week and move the furniture, seeing that i dont think noahs going to last much longer. i feel like hes going to rip through my urethra. its painful. i really hope i can deal with the pains of labor.

I bought this bottle of essential oils last night.. it should be here tuesday-ish. its lavender, clary sage and jasmine. combining them makes a great labor potion to help with pain and make labor shorter. I am believing in this oil 100% because i need positive thoughts about my labor and maybe itll have a placebo effect, if it really doesnt work. we have a tub at the new house so ill put a few drops in the tub while im in early/active labor, and all over my belly and back the rest of the time. this is if everything goes as planned. who knows, maybe we wont e in that house yet when i go into labor. sigh... this is so stressful. it is stressful enough having a baby, then add in moving when I'm 37 wks, and also add in that jays re-doing the floors, and i freak out. i want to be as calm as possible going into labor. plus stress itself can out me into labor.. sooo I dont want that to happen yet. not for another week. the 9th is looking perfect still haha.

alright. im going to hang out on the bed and try to get my mind off this stupid pain. the only thing that helps is spreading my legs wide, while leading back so hes not putting all of his weight on the bone. let hope this isnt the start of it all.

oh and p.s- im still having that gooey mucous discharge. its weird, i thought i would start to lose my mucous plug in chunks and then have a bloody show when labor was close.. but now i just have snot like stuff.. hmm

peace out