4 days PP

So. having a newborn is pretty cool. hes so laid back and sleeps so much during the day haha. at night though, he barely sleeps, but thats to be expected. it hurts so much breastfeeding. im probably going to call la leche league tomorrow to get some help. idk what they will tell me that will solve the issue though. he sucks with his bottom lip in. i have blisters already and i dread breastfeeding so much! thats it. ill update my tummy pic and weight when im 1 week PP. :)

Noah Robert is here!!!

Noah is so amazing. words can't describe how great it feels to be a mom, and to be so lucky to have a healthy, beautiful baby boy. So heres my birth story:

Sept 23rd (Weds)

6am: Bloody show

10am: Continued bloody show, increased in blood and some cramps like menstruation. Called midwives to ask if everything sounds good. Midwives said it sounds great, and we'll probably see our baby within 3 days.

11pm: Laying in bed on my laptop, got some light contractions, wasn't even sure if they counted as contractions but timed them anyway. they were around 7-10 mins apart lasting about 45 seconds.
1130pm: went into living room to tell jay what was going on. I sat on the birth ball to help with pain and contractions started to increase.

Sept 24th (Thursday)
1230am: Contractions still getting worse, having to slightly breathe through them. Sitting on ball, felt like baby dropped really hard into my cervix in the middle of the contraction, and the pain of the contraction increased 10x!! I wanted to cry it hurt so bad out of no where! Then, I felt a little trickle. My water broke!!!
1245am: Called Midwives to ask what to do. wasnt even sure if my water had actually broken or i peed myself cause of the pain of last contraction. she told me to wait it out till contractions were 3-5 min apart for an hour. unless the pain is too unbearable.
100am: hopped into shower, hot water felt amazing on my belly, couldnt find a good position to stand/sit/kneel in. Started to feel nauseas and like i had to poo really bad. Jay left the bathroom and puking and pooping ensued. I told jay to pack his stuff and were going to the hospital. I didnt know, and still dont know why I decided right then was when we should leave for the hospital, but im glad we left when we did.
130am: Load up car and left home.. got gas and and was having some strong contractions in the car. needed jay to stroke my arm gently, which helped a lot, and i breathed through them. the pain at this point wasnt unbearable, just uncomfortable still.
2am: Arrive at hospital, cant make it to the front door without having 3 contractions. Leaning on Jay and doing the "slow dance" helped, but the pain was definitely increasing with each contraction. Male nurse grabs wheelchair for me and helps us get inside. I go to the 8th floor and get asked a bunch of questions, then they brought me into triage. I got hooked up to the monitors. I sat there for about an hour getting asked questions, filling out paper work and stuff. My back hurt sooo bad cause of the way she had me sitting.
3am: At that point, I started asking about pain meds. I knew I didnt want an epidural, but the pain of each contraction was getting bad. Usually theres a break in pain between contractions, but mine were coming every 2-3 mins without a break. I got an IV hooked up to me for fliuds, and got checked for how dilated I was by the midwife. I was 4 cm!!! They told me that my water was a tad green and the baby might have pooped in the womb. they told me they were going to keep me there and we went and found my delivery room!
4am: Sat in delivery room and worked through a bunch of contractions.
430am: I asked to get drugs, and which the midwife prefers, and she suggested Stadol. I havent done any research at all on pain meds, thinking I wouldnt use any, so I trusted her and got some injected into my IV. It took about a minute for it to get to me and I started feeling like I was buzzed/going under anesthesia. I fell asleep then for about an hour.
530am: Woke up from Stadol induced sleep with an enormous amount of pain. I wanted to cry it hurt so bad!! I pressed the Nurse button and someone came in. I asked to be checked for how dilated I was. I got checked and was 9cm!!! I slept through transition!! Midwife told me to turn over to my left side, and the lip of the last cm will be gone soon. As soon as my next contraction started my body wanted to push. It just started pushing. I pressed the Nurse button again and told the midwife my body is pushing, I need to push! By now, the Stadol has worn off and I am back to reality 100%. Pushing starts. Now, pushing didnt really hurt. When a contraction came, it just felt like I needed to poop really bad, and I would bear down as if I was doing exactly that. I could feel him lowering deeper and deeper into my cervix. I did about 6 sets of 3 pushes.
6am: Midwife got all of her catching things ready, and I saw in the little mirror his hair sticking out on the top of his head. It was awesome. I watched Jay's reaction to everything. The midwives asked if I wanted the mirror there the whole time I was pushing and I said no. I was pushing so hard I doubt I would be able to keep my head up and eyes open, haha. I could feel Noah stretching me out. It was hard to sit and wait between contractions, even if the were only a minute or 2 apart. I held a steady pressure on him so he didnt slip back in. The whole 2 steps forward 1 step back thing kinda sucks. The burning sensation of having him crown was very painful.
6:04am: I could feel his nose coming through and that was all the inspiration I needed to push as hard as I could ever push. The midwife told me to listen carefully and go slow. His cord was wrapped around his neck twice, but she got it undone quickly and it wasnt an issue. Then his head popped out, she told me one more strong push and his shoulders will be out! That was such a strange/amazing feeling. I felt a gush of fluid and his shoulders turning as he slipped out and I looked down and saw my amazing baby between my legs. I heard little whimper cries. I held his little hand as the midwife was cutting the cord. They took him over to the bassinet and they got him breathing well and suctioned the fluid out of his nose and mouth. They rubbed him down and brought him over to me. I had my bare chest out in the open for him to lay on, and I stroked his little hand and foot and face. He was adorable. Having to get stitched up sucked. I didnt tear terribly, just a 1st degree tear on my labia and minor fissure tears along the sides.

Noah was born at 6:04 am September 24th weighing in a 8 lbs 6 oz.
My labor and delivery was in total 7 hours! It was such an amazing experience, even though you hear that all the time, it is so true. there is nothing like having a little person that depends 100% on you and your partner, and is half you and and half of them. the love is indescribable.

bloody show!!

so i woke up this morning, and wiped, and i had my bloody show!! it wasnt very bloody, just pink tinged. ohhh im so excited. im going to try to walk today, and bounce on my ball a lot. hopefully this will all happen very soon!!

waiting...

sighhh. i just want him to come out already!!! jays dad is going away for a few days the day after tomorrow, so kiddo better arrive when grandpa is still in the area. hes still moving around a bunch, and seems pretty comfortable in my belly. my carpal tunnel is still sucky, last night was particularly bad, but if thats all i have to complain about this WHOLE pregnancy, i consider myself lucky. i havent really had any real contractions yet, i dont think i have at least. ive been having some cramping and a lot of lightning crotch, but other than that nothings been going on really. oh. the other day when i went to wipe after i peed there was this really strong, goopy string of stuff coming from my vag. im assuming thats my mucus plug, even though the decription of what it SHOULD be like is nothing like what actually came out of me. I just hope he comes soon. i ont want an october baby. and i REALLY dont want to be induced either. if i go another 7 days i have an ultrasound and we're going to talk induction. :(. i want them to strip my membranes when i go this thursday, if i make it till then. but knowing the midwives, they probably wont do anything until im 41 weeks or 42 weeks. hell, they havent even given me an internal yet and im past my due date. thats one thing that annoys me. if i want to be checked, i think i have the right to know. blahhhh noah come outtttt. weve tried sex, walking, the essential oils that are supposed to make contractions strong, nipple stimulation, bouncing on the birth ball, pineapple and spicy food. ugh. idk what to do anymore. i am so pathetically bored.

im going to take a nap.

hopefully the next time i post, ill be posting about my far apart my contractions are, and hopefully thatll be it!!!

40 weeks :)

How far along? 40 weeks! yayy due date!

Total weight gain/loss: 171 according to my drs scale on thursday. so 39 lbs gained total. not bad.
Maternity clothes? nothing new

Stretch marks? my left hip is the worst. my belly has a bunch of little ones going all the way up..

Sleep: last night was terrible. my back needed to be cracked every 3.5 seconds, my hands were completely stiff, my ankles hurt, ugh, i just felt so achy.

Best moment this week: hitting my due date! woo hooooo
Movement: a lot as i type right now. but hes still a very active little baby
Food cravings: nothing
Gender: boy
Labor Signs: none. :( had a dream last night i got bloody show and mucus plug at the same time. i was so excited.

Belly Button in or out? same
What I miss: not having stretchies :( i cant wait to drop this weight. -yup same

What I am looking forward to: my labor. meeting noah.

Milestones: MY DUE DATE! WOOOOOT. doesnt mean he'll be coming out any time soon though. well. within the next 2 weeks deff.

Note to self:

When Gabi gets pregnant, play cruel tricks on her so that she cant use the bathroom and needs to pee very badly. Such an inconsiderate bitch. get out of your very long, drawn out -costing ME money for electricity and hot water- shower and unlock the damn door so i could at least pee while your taking your shower. instead i get a 'uhhhhh ill be out in a minute....' instead. wtf? go burn.

anxious.

thats the one word I can deff use to describe how I feel. Im excited, bored, nervous, but most of all anxious. I just want something to do. and I cant wait to see how my labor plays out. haha. I know most people are scared and don't want to even think about their up coming labor, but I just want to see what happens. Will my water break first? will be in public if it happens? will i start to feel contractions in the middle of the night? will jay have to rush home? will my contractions come out of no where and be very strong? will i have a bloody show or at least see my mucus plug before any of this starts? will i have to be induced?? will i go past 42 weeks? will I have my other sonogram? will I HAVE TO use drugs to induce my labor? sighhh so many questions, so excited to find out the answers. haha. im going crazy, I know. I just want this to happen already!!!!!

39.5 week appt

so yesterday I went to another appt. I was so excited, i was hoping I was going to get an internal, and mayyyybe get my membranes swept. nope. At my other 39 week appt, the nurse brought out hte gown and said they might have an internal done, i got so excited. so i figured this time, since its been like 5 days since last time, they would AT LEAST do an internal. :( i was so sad. they said they usually do them after 40 weeks. tear. so i didnt gain any weight and my blood pressure was a tad high i think. it may be because I drove myself, after not driving for like 2 weeks, to the appointment. so, nothing new. oh, Marie said he feels about 7.5 lbs and hes in the "perfect position". yayyy! cant wait to meet him!

still pregnant..

so tomorrow i have another appt. i cant believe i went this long. i booked this appt 2 weeks ago thinking, i deff wont make it to that appt.. but yup.. i did. greeeeat. I HOPE i get an internal tomorrow. if i dont, ill pretty much demand it. and while shes down there, maybe she can sweep my membranes? thatd be awesommmmme. ugh. 39 wks and 4 days. tear.

39 weeks

How far along? 39 weeks. wooooot

Total weight gain/loss: 171 :D 39 lbs gained total. pooo. but whatever
Maternity clothes? nothing new

Stretch marks? my hip ones are getting soooo bad.

Sleep: my pubic bones are deff not as bad as they were. they pop in the middle of the night sometimes. and my carpal tunnel is kinda worse, but im getting used to it so its okay.

Best moment this week: hearing i only gained 1 lb this week even though i pigged out so bad on icecream and devil dogs haha.
Movement: yup... same amount
Food cravings: chocolate. just a lot of food.
Gender: boy
Labor Signs: none. got a little crampy last night.. prob just gas though.

Belly Button in or out? same
What I miss: not having stretchies :( i cant wait to drop this weight.

What I am looking forward to: my due date! its in a week! wowowwwwww.

Milestones: nothing new this week. but we talked about induction and a late term sonogram, which i didnt know they did, but if i go 8 days past my due date, i have a sono :) one positive i guess haha

39 week appt

So. I met a new midwife today, he name was Carine i think. she was okay. a little older, reminded me of a doctor, more than a midwife. she told me Noah is very low, and head down still. the nurse got me excited when she pulled out the apron and lap cover thingy, but Carine put it away once she came into the room :( no internals for me. she told me that most first time moms can expect to go 10 days past her due date. sigh. thats way too long from here. thats a whole 18 days from today :'( tearrrr. but anyway, i only gained 1 lb! i was so excited when i saw that! i moved the scale all the way to 176 to start off at, and it was way too much and i was like yesss and kept sliding it back.. 171. WOOT! yes, thats still high, and 39 lbs gained thus far in my pregnancy, but i really just had a huge jump in the 2nd trimester. idk what happened those few weeks, but i gained most of my weight then. ok, ill do a full update tomorrow morning. :)

mucus plug?

So I was pooping, and i think my mucus plug flew out. im not sure, cause i was in the middle of doing a poo.. haha.. soo yea. just thought i'd mention this. oh and 10 days left!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHH. so amazing. i remember my 35/35 and hitting 100 days to go... wow only 10 days left!! thats insaneeeeee.

38 weeks

How far along? 38 weeks. im ready. haha

Total weight gain/loss: havent checked. dk where the scale is, and id rather not know. ive been pigging out the past 2 days. my tummy just feels funny alot.
Maternity clothes? nothing new

Stretch marks? same. my lower belly might be getting worse.. but the damage is done already anyway

Sleep: same issues with my pubic bone and carpal tunnel in my hands.. ugh so bad! i dont even look forward to sleeping anymore. i know, shocker.

Best moment this week: getting my oil and cloth diapers in and being 100% ready for my little boy to come.
Movement: yup. nothing crazy during the full moon though.. which surprised me.
Food cravings: chocolate. a lot of it. oh and for like a day i wanted sweet potato fries
Gender: boy
Labor Signs: none. my vag hurts kinda. i used some of my oil on my belly and he started moving a lot haha. but nothing notable.

Belly Button in or out? same
What I miss: sleeping comfortably.

What I am looking forward to: having him. hahah. not being uncomfortable when i sit/lay down/walk. i'm actually really excited to go into labor. haha

Milestones: nothing new this week. but he's deff full term and im deff ready for him to come out :)

37.5 week appt.

so I had my appt yesterday. I had Heather the midwife.. my favorite :). I am negative for GBS (group B strep) so I wont need meds while giving birth.. thank god. I weigh the same as last week, and Noah is still head down and "about 7lbs or so". yayy. I cant believe i have a 7lb baby boy in my belly! haha. Overall it was a great appt. survey and shizz sunday.

oh and i got this oil. idk if i talked about it before on here, but i will again anyway

I looked up some website that had "labor oils".. if u combine a bnch of certain essntial oils, youll have a pain free labor..hm.. haha. well I was going to go out and buy all the diff types of oils and do a few drops of one, a few more of another.. but it would get so pricy! So I started searchng for oils already put together for labor.. and I found this oile. http://www.naturaleco.com/natural-remedies/heavenly-labor-massage-oil-relax-tension-birth.shtml

I know its a little pricy, but I fond it on another website with 2 day shipping for only $38. And even if the oil doesnt do anything, Im believing in it, and hopefully itll at least have a placebo affect on me haha.

Its coming in the mail today.. and im not supposed to use it until im in labor.. but I think on the 9th im going to rub some on, just to see if itll induce me haha.

Carpal Tunnel and Pubic Bones...

So as youve read, I have terrible pubic bone pain at night. like, where i wake up and try to roll over and almost start to cry. well, now you can add carpal tunnel to my woes. I woke up the other day and my hands were a tad more swollen than usual, and my right ring finger clicked open and closed. so weird. so i had my appt yesterday, which ill write another post about, and she told me to get a heated pack thing on my crotch, and drink more water for my hands/finger pain. so i have been, but its only been a day. so during the night last night, I slept mostly on my back (sleeping on my side crushes my pubic bones together..funn) with a little heated pad thingy between my legs.. it actually helped a lot. Now, my finger problem got a lot worse. I woke up and had to snap open all my fingers, and now they hurt to make a fist. wtf. Im so over this. I cant close or open my hand without my other hand helping. ugh. I only have 2 weeks left. i know. but ugh. k bye.