ugh. 150.

so apparently i weigh 150 now. ughhhhhhh. so that means i have gained a total of 18 lbs... :'(. i SHOULD have gained about 14 lbs so far, but nope. well maybe if i breast feed a lot a lot a lot when baby gets here the weight will fall off? i hope :'( i feel so grossly fat and disgusted with my self right now. well, i guess ill keep working out my arms, and keep doing my squats and 2-day-a-week yoga. oh poo. see, if i weren't pregnant i would be able to eat less and start losing weight very unhealthfully. but no, i have to keep eating the good stuff and start exercising. ew. haha. well today jay said he would go for a walk with me, and were going to his friends birthday party where they will probably be playing badminton.. so ill get some exercise then.. right? ugh. its not even like im eating bad... well yesterday i have a small cup of tofutti... and a chocolate meltdown at ruby tuesdays.. but other than that ive been eating very well!! oh well. ill post a survey now.