yay shower tomorrow..................

So my mom and gma are hosts for my shower. my mom is including me in everything. she calls me up to see if i want to go with her to order the food, to buy decorations, to meet with the guy to get the keys to the place she rented.. etc. So she tells me my g-ma gave her $600 to spend on the shower, and whatever is left over would go to LO. well i asked my mom today out of curiosity how much she had left, and she said $10. wtf. how did she spend that much money on 35 guests??? I'm afraid she spent the money on herself.. which she tends to do with other peoples money.

I have issues with my mom already. when my father passed away 7 years ago she was expected some money to come out of the settlement. they were divorced 2 years before he died..so i dont know why she thought she was going to get any money. but anyway, now she demands that my sister and i give her 40k out of our money so she can put a down payment on a house.. well ive given her 10k so far, and she has NO MONEY LEFT. and now she expects me to pay her more, even though we have a baby coming in 2 months!

I so dont want to stress about this. but Itd be nice to have extra cash around for after the shower, to get things we still need (which is a lotttt no one bought anything we needed off our registry.. besides bottles, pump and boppy)

ok im done venting..

my left big toe has been twitching for the past 2 days.. so strange

oh, and sleep is officially uncomfortable for me :(

not to mention all the fleas in this stupid house.. we're flea bombing it this weekend, thank god

i feel absolutely fat. and i am. so that makes sense.

my baby shower is this saturday, and i have a tank top to wear, just to show off my lovely lumpy chunky arms.

sigh. goodbye till sunday

Dear Noah

Mommy here, just wanted to say heyyy and hope you enjoyed harry potter last night. It was pretty loud.. sorry. So, about you coming out to meet us, can you come in early september? like between the 6-12th? just not the 11th.. that would be a depressing birth day. but anyways, mommy and daddy are soo excited to hang out with you and take care of you and kiss you. your going to be so loved by everyone.

alright.. talk to you soon <3

Love, with all of my heart, Mommy

31 weeksss

How far along? 31 weeks! wow time is really flying by

Total weight gain/loss: 161. big dinner last night, and have been slacking on the bike riding.. :/
Maternity clothes? nothing new

Stretch marks? deff those starting to the right of my belly button :(

Sleep: the charlie horses have stopped; thanks to bananas. sleeps been great still

Best moment this week: jays dad feeling noah knee his hand
Movement: yep, a lot
Food cravings: I had this random craving for strawberry ice cream with pie crust and graham crackers ad bananas. damn you coldstone!! but it went away. im still preferring fruit and healthy stuff vs fatty foods.. thank god.
Gender: little boy
Labor Signs: None

Belly Button in or out? just flat really
What I miss: not having cellulite and stretch marks everywhere, not weighing 160 lbs...

What I am looking forward to: losing this weight and cellulite. and i still cant wait to hold our little boy and hang out with him :)

Milestones: i dont know if I hit any. I just realllllly want to hold him and kiss him

30 weeks! woo hooo!

How far

along? 30 weeks!!!!!

Total weight gain/loss: 160. I didn't ride my bike much this week, but I have been eating really good.
Maternity clothes? nothing new

Stretch marks? boobs, left butt cheek, tops of thighs seem to be fading a bit. maybe a few starting to the right of my belly button..

Sleep: the charlie horses have stopped; thanks to bananas. sleeps been great still

Best moment this week: everytime I ask jay if hes scared or nervous he goes "no, i think its going to be so fun" hes so adorable haha
Movement: yep
Food cravings: fruit. esp. pineapple.. but nothing new this week.
Gender: little boy
Labor Signs: None

Belly Button in or out? just flat really
What I miss: not having cellulite and stretchmarks everywhere, being able to bend down to pick something up without my belly being in the way, rolling over/sitting up/getting up without the help of others haha

What I am looking forward to: losing this weight and cellulite. and i still cant wait to hold our little boy and hang out with him :)

Milestones: 30 is like a milestone for me. like 24 weeks. im just so excited to see him

belly stretchies :(

i have discovered little stretchies on my belly, just to the right of my belly button. :( wahhhh. he always lays right there and it probably was stretching out a lot from him. i hope by the time I deliver there wont be a crapload of stretchies.

breastfeeding dream

so i had a dream that I had litle noah, and we were trying to breastfeed. the first try, he just bit my nipple and i started to bleed. then my mom was like "try to football hold" but i couldnt cause my boob wasnt cooperating, and my boppy didnt come yet (I remember being SO frustrated that i didnt have my boppy, haha). so then we tried again, and for some reason I pumped my other boob, and when I would try to breastfeed him, i would get confused and give him the bottle, or a part of the pump.. it was so strange. it was like the pump/bottles just made everything soo much more annoying.

now im thinking about not pumping or using bottles at all. i dont mind being the only person that can feed noah, and im sure jay doesnt mind either. it would just be convenient if im taking a shower, or out grocery shopping or something.

I really hope breastfeeding isnt that hard. in my dream i was sooooo frustrated.

we'll see i guess.